Are you actually aware?

If you are not consciously aware that you are not only your own body, mind, thoughts and emotions, but everything else appearing in your experience as well, then you have become distracted, and might perhaps consider dropping everything you are concerned about and go meditate.
With high awareness, there are no coincidences. You can see all connections between events and trace them backwards in time. Only in low awareness does events seem random, because the mind has set arbitrary priorities on different things. An example: I meditated today, and suddenly I sensed I was behind a truck in a snowy Russian town. It seemed random and out of now where, but I heard Russian spoken earlier the same day, and practised Russian the night before. In this way, any observation can be traced back to its source. These were partly images and thoughts in my head, but the same observations can be done with external appearances. You can actually see how your whole life has been self-generated from the beginning.
If you set only one priority (for example meditation without any objective) as your highest and only priority in life, you can rapidly experience this.
But that means you should recognize:
Food, drink etc, people, known or unknown, work/studies/hobbies and any other needs, desires or urges you have are all just unimportant distractions. Even religions, spirituality, etc and any thoughts about anything are distracting. And then, when you have become truly aware of what you are, if you still want to distract yourself with these things, you can do it with full love and enjoyment!

Note: this text was originally published on my Instagram account dedicated to enlightenment,
At the moment, no new content is being added there, but you are of course invited to browse it, comment on and share any posts you like!
I will continue to dig out the best nuggets from the account, and post them on this blog; the goal is to later condense everything into an ebook.
The enlightenment page on this site (available in the site menu) already have a personal accounts, articles and insights related to enlightenment which, if read with an open mind, can be life transforming!

Consequences of the carnist choice

A vegan were troubled by the following conundrum:
“Whenever I try to explain that humans aren’t really meant to eat meat or dairy products, they always say that can’t be right cause they are on the food pyramid. How do I respond to this?? Even I start second guessing myself when they say that.”

First, can we recognize that any meaning is made up by the mind? Words are superimposed onto the actual observations. Can we also recognize then, that there is a the choice of where to place oneself, of what made up model of reality to believe in?

If we accept this, then we accept that we made the choice of placing ourselves on top of that imaginary food-pyramid, a model that is causing perpetual death and suffering to both self and others. And that there is a choice to maintain these habits. The body functions according to the energies it digests. The industry of perpetual holocaust maintained in the world today appears to give humans deteriorating health in a gradually decaying body, manifesting in diseases such as cancer. Look at unbiased research on the connection between food sources and health and find the clear correlations.

But instead of looking just for data, I invite you to allow yourself the time and breathing-room to see and feel reality as it is, leave behind societal/cultural-imposed beliefs (a regular meditation can help with that).

You might discover that it is a natural no-brainer to choose health, love and compassion, without the need of an external authority telling you what is right or not. Any individual can become conscious enough to choose a healthier life.

Enlightenment jokes

I hope these can enlighten up your day

But.. we don’t need anything!

Shh… don’t tell anyone, I am having too much fun making this stuff up

— Why is it impossible to stop?

— Because you never move

— What is the difference between you and I?

— We are both empty

— What does God do to create the universe?  [<- notice the present tense ]

— Nothing. God is both subject and object, never does a thing. Lazy bastard!

— What is the question to which there is no real answer?

— All questions are that question. The answers of all questions are equally unreal

— What is the difference between God and a dog?

— The letters are reversed.

— Then what is the similarity between God and a dog?

— Neither actually exist outside the mind

— Then why are we talking about God and a dog?

— Both point to nothing

— Why do you never finish anything?

— There is no thing that can be finished. And no time in which to finish it

— Why is the poorest the richest?

— To have nothing is to have the source of creation

— Where are you going?

— To work

— What do you do?

— Nothing

— Seriously?

— There is nothing else to do. It is all that ever happens

— I just discovered I am not a human being!

— Then what kind of organism are you?

— An organ of Truth, an ambassador of nothing

— Is there a spherical Minecraft?

— Yes, you are in it!

note: Minecraft is an immensely popular (over 100 million copies sold) sand-boxed based video game based on placing 3D-blocks

A quick list to dissolve the ego

Here is a list of things to accept to quickly start dissolving the ego, both personal and collective. It follows the divisions of the well renowned spiral dynamics model, going all the way from the instinct self to the non-dual state. It gets harder and harder for the ego to stomach the more of the bullet points you accept as possible truths.

Only read it if

  1.  You are interested in the long-term happiness for yourself, mankind and all life around you.
  2.  You really want to dissolve and transcend the ego.

The list

  • We don’t need any of the basic things we think we do for survival: Food, water, shelter etc. We only imagine we do and imagine others that appear as they do too.
  • We don’t need other people/things/ to interact with. We imagine others need it, and manifest them as appearing to need it and get fulfillment from it.
  • We don’t need to control/own anything. We imagine we do and manifest others who appear as they own or control, have benefits and derive happiness from it. It is only seems true from that temporarily partitioned perspective of consciousness.
  • We don’t need rules of behavior or thought, special symbols of faith etc. We don’t need a particular purpose of any thought, object or person, including ourselves. The outer world only appear to follow the rules we are still identifying with.
  • We don’t need to change anything internally or externally to become anything. We manifest information, people and things as if they appear to improve or change things and give happiness or fulfillment, but they don’t. It is an illusion, temporary and leads nowhere.
  • We are not learning anything. There is nothing to learn, it only appears as if someone is learning, that there is an “outside” teaching and “inside” learning, but it is attachment to thought, information and memory, just as if we were collecting junk into a large house. Likewise, we are never teaching, it is just the same with “outside” given junk from “inside”. Nothing actually happens to give real lasting happiness.
  • Nothing worth having is emerging. We are just imagining that something “new” has happened, and imagining that because it is “new”, it is more worth than what was before. We collect manifestations as “experiences” with new perspectives and ideas etc, keep running after these, watching others do the same.
  • And finally, by writing and sharing this list we might be fooling ourselves with a belief that being enlightened/thinking non-dual and manifesting enlightened people is “the right thing to do”. It might be better to just sit and meditate doing nothing.

The basis for the reasoning above are

  • You are consciousness, all of it, but distracted into thinking you are a separate self.
  • Preference creates attachment/ego.  Both positive and negative. Struggle against anything or finding reasons for negating anything creates new attachments, which keeps the ego going.
  • Diverted attention of consciousness into perception of separate things, time, space, etc. creates attachment/ego

A brief history of humanity to date

This was not written from a non-dual perspective, and thus quite far from the actual truth. For example, it bypasses the fact the the past never exists outside of the present moment, and even there, only as fiction.

It was written in an attempt to answer the question “What’s going on?”. The writing is partly influenced by the spiral dynamics model of consciousness and human evolution. The rest is “my own”.

I don’t apologize for skipping freely around what would be considered major events. Here we go.

Consciousness in earth’s main timeline has scared itself shitless so many times that it has evolved itself to understand its own being and be able to transcend itself.

Buried in the collective dream are memories of a peaceful harmonious time with nature, along with the survival stories that ensued from the beginning of spoken and later written tradition.

As people gained followers due to their extraordinary godlike powers, they felt compelled to impose order by handing down rules readily believed by the superstitious. These were eventually broken, as the memories of the mystical powers waned.

Instead, the people created smaller empires of their own within the systems of rules. Some people, such as artists, musicians, writers and poets, explored the collective memories, but their creations only vaguely stirred the sleeping, and even their creations became part of the rule systems.

The systems clashed with each other, breeding further rigidity to them, while crushing the ones without enough ingenuity. They also merged and blended, until more and more were vaguely aware of their being something odd going on.

Enough faith were again gathered, but this time in the ideas more than people. The ideas brought new rules again, that the larger systems began to follow, and the cycles repeated in much larger scales. Ideologies clashed worldwide.

Simultaneously the mysteries of material existence itself were uncovered, though the results and most profound implications were understood by very few to begin with

The trials led to such a need for speedy transmittance of information that it eventually was possible to be in instant communication from any person to any other all over the world.

Now, all that had been learnt since the beginning of the rise of human identity and even knowledge outside of it was available to put under question, integrate and tranform for anyone. Exponential growth of innovation, ideas, interchange, understanding and even possibilities to transcend all knowledge. Stepping in and out of both collective and individual timelines at will. Joining consciousness and reality with what was previously thought as imagination. Extending dimensionality of being, synthesizing space and time, past, future and present, conscious and unconscious, myth, stories, fact and fiction. More and more these were and are becoming arbitrary borders.

People and individuals can empower each other, themselves and their surrounding environment to appear as gods in comparison with what they were just years, months, days and even minutes or seconds ago. For these, time is more and more a relic, or a convenient tool to pick up in the appropriate context. Nothing needs to be taken for absolute truth anymore, not even death. How can there be death when you exist outside of time and space?

More and more people are able to discard the whole story of both their  own and the collective past, watching its last undulations with dispassion, as the ending credits of a quite poor movie. That is, poor in comparison to what they know they are, and can become.

Free associations on immaterial concepts

    • Love — accepting what is
    • Courage — moving along, letting go of interference of fear with the past
    • Patience — being in what is
    • Magnanimity  — accepting in totality what was and is and is coming into being
    • Goodness — patiently setting aside the self to merge into what is
    • Faith — flowing with the set course, without doubts
    • Gentleness — action with minimum force, generating least resistance. Effortless flow aligned with love
    • Selflessness — unknowing the other as separate
    • Self-sacrifice — releasing the ties of self identification to external and internal manifestations
    • Truthfulness — knowing the transparent totality of existence. The knower and the known is the same, nothing is hidden
    • Righteousness — knowing truth and staying with truth. Faith in truth
    • Justice — seeking truth, setting aside past ideas until knowing truth
    • Mercy — love in knowing truth of the illusion of separate self
    • Gracefulness — faith in goodness and gentleness
    • Humility — not pretending to know. Not comparing without truth. Knowing that all relative truths are temporary
    • Loyalty — staying with faith, not clinging to non-truth
    • Sympathy — seeing the self in the other
    • Spiritual knowledge — distinguishing the illusory from the real
    • Forgiveness — merging the illusory separations of past selves
    • Honesty — acting from truth
    • Eternity — the dissolution of the illusory separation of time in past and future
    • Hope — steering the course of the present towards truth

Notes reading ‘Thoughts on Art and Life’ by Leonardo da Vinci

After reading Leonardo’s opinions on beauty as superiorly expressed and experienced by the eye than the ears, the reason being that it is not subject to a span of time during which the experiencer forgets what has been experienced (something I do not agree on) I pose the following questions as an invitation to explore from an enlightenment perspective:
Is it possible to experience that which is beauty, total and complete, pervading and unifying all senses, without pertaining to or attaching it to a particular object of the mind, past, present or future?
Can it be done effortlessly, without focus?
Does this contemplation lend access to higher awareness and truth?
Also, outside the topic, as a contemplation, what is the optimal way of expressing thoughts when getting enthusiastic about a subject, still retaining the aim to capture as large and broad an audience as possible, who can benefit from the discovered results?

Diary notes

I am almost done collecting my diary notes from the last two years into a commonplace book. The idea is to compile them into something more readable and extract the most useful bits.

Here are some slightly edited notes from December.

No word is Truth.

Time is infinite,

No time is ‘lost’ or ‘made’

No justifications are necessary for Truth:

  • Simply state what is
  • Inquiries will always lead to nothing, thus no-one justifying why you should or shouldn’t think or do something can ever have the absolute Truth
  • No thought is needed to find Truth


  • Hunger is cover-up for suppressed anger
  • All ideas can be hijacked by the ego

Relative absolute truths (yes, paradox is inherent to reality)

  • There is a truer ‘me’ or self
  • Nothing is hidden
  • All compromises to feel secure are self-deception (decreasing authenticity and Truth)

Enlightenment insights

While walking along the river today

  • Truth of reality is accessed by reducing as much copied behaviours of the past reoccurring in the present as possible. This is what is referred to as subconscious.
  • Since reality contains all possibilities, including everything that appears as paradox, a paradoxical way to access the truth is by very exact conscious repetition! Ways exemplifying this is daily meditations, mantras, mindfulness and mastery of any specific activity.
  • But once discovered, Truth is accessible at any time at any place, since it is all that actually exists

Morning meditations

Be authentic, aware, conscious, free, open and generous
Drink water
Eat local plant-based food
Enjoy what you engage in and you let others to do the same
Possessions are temporary
Share what you know and stay open to learn
Stay true to your values
– all you experience is yourself in infinite forms
– bounds and limits, subjects and objects are illusions
– there is no scarcity, there is only what is
– reality itself is the meditation
– words are not the things

inspired by the roman emperor Marcus Aurelius, who wrote his Meditations to be read by himself every morning