I woke up really late, at 10. But since I wore socks and pajamas pants, leaving bed was not a problem. I had wanted to apply for a job between 7 and 8 in the morning, but since I had disrupted the schedule I had planned, I felt reluctant against doing anything! Luckily I remembered a good practice: to make a list of things to feel grateful for. I did it and instantly felt most of the resistance and negativity dissolve.
I wrote the 10 things the first came to mind, without censoring. Interestingly, the things I felt reluctance to appeared very quickly.
- Being part of a good social security system
- Fruits and vegetables
- Being clean and healthy
- Applying for jobs
- My parents
- Positive vegans
Shower and Exercise
I went for a walk, but couldn’t resist jogging a while too. Then I had a shower.
I decided to eat lunch-like food even if I had not had breakfast, since this will get my body better adapted to a regular circadian rhythm. I invited my father to falafels (spicy chickpea balls), red cabbage, cucumber and rucola. We ate together at the dining table and talked for some length about physiological and mental health. I might heed my fathers advice and visit a psychologist and apply for sick leave.
Job Search and CV updates
I then meditated before applying for the second job this month. This one is as a junior UX-designer at the Swedish public service television, for a consultancy firm. My resume and cv-writing skills are rapidly improving. I took me one and a half hour to write a new cv and personal letter, then one hour to update my Swedish job search report, including correcting links from before. I maintained good discipline and updated both the English and Swedish source-cv I adapt when applying for individual jobs. These also help with self reflection and keeping track of what I actually know.
I added several entries under self-studies and also a section for perceived chakra energy levels. Like so many people living in the materialistic western scientific-minded culture of today I am very much in my head, with little time and awareness spent elsewhere. Usually when I perceive a chakra activating, it is either at the base of the spine or around the heart. I think I am blocked by too low self-esteem, fear of rejection and other inhibitions to sense the other ones, although I have sensed the throat chakra activate a few brief moments during the last two years.
30 Minute Logotype Design
I registered another wordpress blog. first only with the intent of having a place to migrate my gaming content from this site. But thanks to how the logotype grew, I decided it will a community site. Here it is along with my thoughts and feelings during the creation process:
I made good use of text, and especially the Ubuntu font. I started with a background color somewhere around turqoise (#13b3b3 if I remember correctly) to associate to sea life, lagoons and coral reefs. I added first a C, then a G. This felt to close to CG for computer graphics, so I joined the letters with a v. Here is where I felt like conscious gaming should be conscious vegan gaming. More niche and less generic, it follows current trends in the world. I added a dot . inside to the C to be less rigid, and changed the G to a g, before it felt to close to an anagram for Swedish king Carl Gustaf =). I put hyphens (—) underneath, but felt they were to stiff and swapped them for tildes ~ to have it more organic.
I like the ambiguity of the forms; it could look like a bird or a scissor. But I would still like to make it a bit more warm and playful. Let me know if you have suggestions.
Dinner and Evening
Dinner today was inspired by chakras. I did my best to include as many colors I could, as well as balance them. The hardest color to find was blue. But at least it has blueberries.
I felt it was a bit heavy on carbohydrates with half a banana, two slices of soft bread and one of hard bread. But the closeup photos turned better than I expected!
After dinner I edited the photos, practiced Hindustani singing with an app and tried another app for learning Chinese. Now I will develop characters for the game world b³O, while relaxing in bed. Good Night!